Walking alone in the rain back home.

As i waited for the bus to come, i wondered wat would it be like to walk u home in the rain. brought along a spare umbrella just in case u din bring.
in my mind, images of us walking together in the rain, side by side, gives me much comfort.

Little do we have the chance to walk back home in the rain, chatting away abt anything under the sun.

The bus finally came, it was pretty late alrdy, i start to worry if i'll miss u, hav u made ur way home alrdy. but i let God, our Heavenly Dad, decide if we should meet today.
i alighted, i look across the street, wondering if u have left for home.
it was still raining, i walked to the school hoping i'll meet u.

In the sch, there's so many ppl. clueless of where to start, i left to God our Father to decide how we should meet.
Finally, we met.
I hand to u wat belongs to u. i wanted to walk u home, but sadly, u have other things u wanna do.
i said ok.
as i leave the sch gate, i felt so alone.

Why? i asked myself. I kept telling myself that u have a life of ur own, that u need ur own space. I must have expecting too much. but still it was a moment alone in the rain all by myself, nobody but myself.
Dun worry, i'm fine, u did nothing wrong. it was my fault to be expecting so much from u. haha, silly old me.
just need a bit of time to ajust my feeling and think properly.
Will hav plenty of chances to walk together in the rain.

I'm alright, my little brother, i'm alright. =)

A relationship built on God the Father and Jesus our Brother as our foundation, we will support and encourage each other.

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Finally got the ball rolling...

Went to parade today, gave an intro and expectation of the LDC.
Got the boys to do target test. Assignned the Council jobs and wat they need to fulfil as members of the Council and their individual tasks.
Finally the Council is starting to work out and starts to form an independance on their own. My aim is to get the Council to function as a team, a family that can function without the help and interference of the Officers.
A Council that can teach and hand over to the next generation without the officers taking over again.

The ball is rolling, let's keep it rolling together.

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Approved and Not approved.

Received a letter from the Government.
Its from the Immigration Authorities.
Must be regarding my application for Singapore citizenship.
As i opened the letter, the TV played this years National Day Theme song.
I read at fast as possible, anxious of the outcome of my application.
My application for Singapore citizen have been approved.
Feelings? I don't know. It's mixed i guess. i guess only jisam knows how i feel.
Anyways, i saw this particular document that i need to bring..
Cert. of Baptism.
Being an Impatient Dweeb, i went to "test water".
I told my mum, i wanna be baptize and i wanna invite her to my baptism ceremony.
She said no.
Haiz. I'll have to wait. God wans us to be patient as he train us to persever, to be a better testimony for Him.
Wait lor.
=P

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Cried.

Watched Extreme makeover home edition today a second part to the previous episode.
The story goes on as the family was given an extra day of vacation and the team have another 24hrs to complete the house.
i actually cried, twice some more..
once with tears of sadness when they played the recorded call from the police when the guy was shot and another with tears of joy as the family came back to their brand new home, shocked and touched.
the team even got the young couple a wedding ring and a WEDDING. It that cool or wat!
God Bless this family. =)

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No one said its gonna be easy.

I want to be like Christ, therefore i wanna be baptized.
I prayed and God the Spirit tells me to wait.
I will obey.
God wants me to reconcile with my family 1st.
I will obey.
God tells me to be patient.
I will obey.
I will do watever He tells me.

As Uncle Koon Soo was teaching us on "Knowing Your Salvation", he mentioned abt Spiritually Dead and Spiritually Alive.
At this point of time, it came to me, a punchline - Spiritual CPR.
We Christians are spiritually alive, and it's our duty to perform spiritual CPR on those spiritually dead.
So, what does spiritual CPR means?
C = Christ
P = Professing
R = Resuscitation

Hmm, kinda cute. HAHA.
and it's a neat saying, dun u agree?

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Reaching Out. My Heart Bleeds.

Shocks after shocks.
Impacts after impacts.
Nobody says its easy. in fact God tells us that there will be long-sufferings as His children. Mayb I'm making a mountain out of a mole hill, but my sight have became clearer, my heart will become stronger. For after perseverance comes strength. Overcome and there will be reward. Though my heart bleeds now, I do not wan to give up. Though people turn their back on me, I will persevere and continue to pursue.
I want to be diligent in your work, and I'll, so that I can see them in Heaven, showered by your Love, Warmth and Grace.
Keeping my beloved friends in my prayers, I'll be diligent.

A quote for Kenneth, as promised. Sorry that it izzin just on homosexuality, but as a whole.

But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.

They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth. Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these men oppose the truth—men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected. But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone.

2Timothy 3:1-9

A day at the Home.

So, I'm at Ken's place now. using his highly infected com too blog..
Let's just hope nothing happens to my acct.
Yes, finally the visit to the children home is over.
Overall an enjoyable trip, the boys' performance was not bad, at least our props are more nicely done.
And so the story goes, we sang. We performed. We played with the kids there.
Apparently, kids will always be kids. violence is always the boys favorite theme.
Our "weapons" and Cardboard van was turned into shreds of useless papers by the end of the day.
Today's trip left me with much tots and sadness.
The kids there, unlike other normal kids, are very protective and keeps to themselve, not very responsive yet hyperactive.
Well after the performance and stuff, during games, the kids there start to open up to us. well, that's where i discovered that the kids enjoys even the simplest pleasure. bringing joy to the kids there is very enjoyable, though there's a need to scarifice a bit, like standing under a tree , risking being hit by the ball.
It's even more heart warming yet saddening when one of the kids as me, " Will you be coming back to visit us again?"
My heart sank. Speechless, i could only just smile at him...

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Idol or just a cartoon?

Working in Toyrus can be quite enlightning as there are lots of incident u can see as a bystander which can really get u thinking..
today, as i was arranging the Girls section, i was reminded of parents trying to draw their children's attention to this toy of this much popular cartoon character, Dora.
So, wat's so speacial abt this Mexican girl who carries a purple talking backpack, tagged along by a talking monkey , doing nothing all day but exploring a world that's weird and awfully too colourful for adults.
With this much abnormal issues presented in the show, the parents still sort of encourages the kid to "idolise" the very much unsound character, cause she literally talks to a monkey, a bagpack, a weasel and many other animals and items. So girls, or rather children are being introduce and encouraged to learn from these characters, yet years ago, ppl make a big "Hoo Haa" abt harry potter might let kids think that they are wizards and stuff like that. izzin it funny? ppl rather their kids to talk to monkeys den to behave like a kid in a wizard sch.
If harry potter was really that bad, i think the parents gotta worry abt kids acting like superman, attempting to create and consume "Chemical X" to acquire superpowers, or start grabbing the laudray pole and shouting "cow-a-bun-ga". even watching normal serial drama might put ur kids at risk of wanting to marry the gal sitting in his class [a kid at age of 5-9], or attempting suicide cause the parents refuse to buy the latest power ranger toys.
But hey, look on the bright side. who knows, ur child might become very smart criminal, outsmarting the police and getting away with every crime he does.
He might not died from the deadly spider's venom and become spiderman, or at least hav more eyes then normal ppl.
So..
There izzin much we can do izzit..
=P
so much for the tots at work...

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Pay And Pay. Show Me the Monay!

Finally settled the problems that's bothering me for some time.
Deferred the CPF repayment thingy, mayb can ask my dad to waive the loan from his CPF acct, but mayb not, i'll see how 1st.
Den went to confirm my application of Singapore Citizenship. According to my calculation, I should receive the letter of the outcome of my application by Aug, My month.
I should receive my Chinese O-lvls results in Aug too, my month.
finally gonna receive my full salary in Aug too, my month.
Singapore National Day on the coming 9th, my month.
Boys gonna preform at NDP, my month.
Jisam's gonna leave for the States in Aug, my month...
So much that's gonna happen in Aug, so much anticipations...
I'm still waiting for answer whether if i should go for baptism now...
I ought to pray more abt it.
Will i pass my chinese O-lvls in Aug?
Will i celebrate NDP this year as a Singaporean this Aug?
Will i be baptised this Aug?

Can't wait for Aug to come, my month.

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For Wat? Wat For? Faith? or Blind Faith?

So, today i went badminton-ing with jisam, probably for the last time, cause he's leaving for the States to study for 3 years..
*sob* Hey Jisam, we must have a meal together b4 u fly k!

Anyways, after that, we had a simple lunch together, den we went home.
i den spent 20mins to shower, pack, "dress up" and leave for parade.
Reached sch just in time.
so, everything in short, we rehearsed for the visit to the children's home and did some drills and other stuffs that izzin really important now.
there's a new teacher in charge assigned to us. hopw he's up to the job.
we really need a "all out to get the boys" teacher who izzin afraid to dish out A-Forms. Will be praying for him. Hope he will be saved too.
=)
after saying so much, i discovered that i have not said the main point of today's topic of discussion. ok, uncle andrew was sharing with the boys abt this monk who brought back a tooth which was believed to belong to a great monk, and managed to raised money to build a grand temple to house this tooth. the issue is that, this tooth is believed to be a fake, cause it dun look like a human tooth, more like a bull's.
Then, uncle andrew also mentioned abt Lord Jesus's tome.
It's empty. In simple terms, Jesus is still alive, He died and resurrected from the dead and now alive, living.
So, the question is, do u wanna worship 1 that is alive, sinless and almightly or 1 that is dead and whose body can be decomposed, destoryed and turn to dust.
the choice is yours my dear readers.

In their fright the women bowed down with their faces to the ground, but the men said to them," Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; He has risen! Remember how He told you, while He was still with you in Galilee: 'The Son of Man must be delivered into the hands of sinful men, be crucified and on the third day be raised again.' Luke 24:5-7

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Broke and limitations

Okay, so my fav band has finally released their 3rd album, Glowing.
Sadly, as much as i wanna get that album, i dun have the cash to purchase it online.
i refuse to download even though i have the means to do so.
They are a bunch of cool ppl, and i wanna support them.
Guess i'll have to wait till i get my pay.
But wait! i dun think i can get it even if i get my pay.
need to pay DH and Jx for the Presents for HL and Nel.
I think it's time i let them know i dun wanna share present next time.
As for me, i'm not gonna celebrate my birthdae, no money to celebrate.
And wat is there to celebrate anyway? Why can't celebration be just a walk down the beach, or watch tv together, or just sharing a cone of ice-cream?
Does it have to presents and treats, Movies and popcorns?
Birthdays...
Haiz. When will i get to celebrate my born again day?

I dun wan flowers, toys, gold and silver.
All i wan for Birthday is to be baptise in front of my friends and family.

Jesus replied, "let it be so now; it is proper for us to do this to fulfill all righteousness." Then John consented. Matthew 3:15

Sad, Touching, Extreme Makeover: Home Edition

Okay, went home straight after churching.
met Roy on the way to mrt, chatted all the way to yishun.
kind of guilty cause sort of being a gooseberry [his girlfriend was ard].
always, reached home, watch tv.
chance upon Extreme Makeover: Home Edition.
very touching situation, almost cried.[being emo]
show ended half way without conclusion, gonna try to catch it next week.
God Bless the Family.

But the fruit of the Spirit is Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self-control. Against such things there is no law. galatians 5:22-23

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Isomia...

Ookay, i have really bad sense in spelling.
It's 5.30am in the morning and i still can't sleep after laying in my bed for the pass 2-3 hrs.
wat could be worst?
Well, i'm having a continuous nose bleed for the pass 2 days...
only realised that now...
Mayb i should really see a doctor..
hai, need to spend money again..
due to the fact tat my nose is mucusing, so the blood is mixed in the mucus, and having a bad habit of the inward relife of the mucus instead of the more hygenic way of outward release of mucus, i wouldn't hav know tat my nose is bleeding till i blow it...
so i guess that i'm suffering from lack of blood...
too heaty, mayb..
or mayb i see too many pretty grannys. LOL
at this point of time i still can make fun of myself shows tat i'm still ok. mayb.
i used to think green flam and orange mucus was scary enough, until now.
red is the worst..
not many ppl had green flam, i think...
seriously, who ever hav though that ur windpipe can produce GREEN COLOUR STICKY FLUIDS!!!
and Orange Mucus... must be the normal yellow 1s mixed with blood...
if not, i think i need to see a specialist or a vet.
Mayb need to be refered to a NASA personnel...

i'm not overworked.. just underpaid.

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So Broke.

So i went to check my bank account today after topping up ez-link card.
left $1.56.
in wallet now, $20.
days till next pay day, 17.
estimated time of total finance depletion, 10 days.
estimate time and amount of finance back up, 2 days $25.
[that means ppl return me money]
estimated time of total financal collapse after financal backup, 3 days.

the above information is true.
based on the total amount of availiable cash i can touch, which includes every single dime in my piggy bank i hav $75, including the backup.
based on $1.2 per trip for an adult travel, at least $2.4 per day.
[Note the AT LEAST!!!]
i travel every for work and work and still work, adds to 17x2.4 = $40.8.
$75-$40.8 = $34.2
base on single simple meal without drink per day, 2.5 per day.
estimated minimum working days left till pay day, 10.
total expendeture for food necessity, 10x$2.5 = $25.
$34.2 - $25 = $9.2
[Note that its based on minimum working days and 1 meal per day.]
therefore, if i din get my financal backup, i'll only have $9.5 for the rest of the working days for my meals, which will last me at most 3 days.
[provided i dun travel more than 2 trips a day, which is highly impossible.]

base on supersaver and surviour mode:
meals can be replaced by eating grass or wind, due to the zero costing and doesn't require to pay GST, rent, tax and service charges.
alternatively, i can still spend $2.2 on a "5 pack" instant cooking noodles and eat raw at work. $2.20 can last for 5 working days if i can bear with the hunger.
that way $9.2 can last for 20 working days.
[do not try the above mentioned methods - i'm sick of instant noodles...]

did i mention tat the bills have arrived and i need to start paying the poly sch fees of $100+ per month?

Arh, i'll find a way.
God will show me the way to solve my problems.
=)

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Oral Exam cleared. LC is next.

So today is my oral exam for O-lvls.
The exam centre happens to be my ex-secondary sch.
well, lots hav changed since i last visited the place.
anyways, wanted to "shun bian" visit my beloved teachers but sadly they were having a meeting then.
Nvm, i'll say hey the next time i drop-by again.

Does history repeats or is it a line extending forward?
If it's a Circle, should we break free or resign ourselves to our fate?

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Turn Left, Turn Right.

So, as the title says, it's related to the movie.
I met this girl at work, in toyrus, and we din't really talk to each other, cause i'm just too freaking SHY!
Kk, so as i was saying, we had to do inventory today, and we in the same team.
Okay, so no big deal abt that, but I'm happy and i dunno y.
Though out the whole stock taking, we din't really talked.
Until we were going to leave, as we split up to shared cabby bak, i realised that we both lived in Yishun, and wat's more shocking is that we lived on the same street.
If that's not shocking enough, guess wat...
We live in the same BLOCK!

Both of us were in shock.
she couldn't believe that we have been neighbours for the past 17-20 years and we din't even met once.
Due to the structure of our flat, we can actually see each other's kitchen windows, but it's imposible to chat or communicate, cause we'll need to shout like loud obnoxious brats to accomplish that.

Kk, gotta sleep, got oral exam coming up.

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Why Study? What went wrong with our education system?

The news today says something abt Singapore's prospect and the "improving" economy.
I do agree that Singapore has very gd standard in "education" as in knowledge wise, but working in Toyrus let me see something else as well.
Even though singapore continues to advance in education, science, technology, economy and blah blah blah... it seems to me that most WELL EDUCATED HUMAN BEINGS in Singapore are not far off from barbarians. A simple common sense such as "putting back an item after looking at it" doesn't seems to exist in the Complex brain of these "WELL EDUCATED HUMAN BEINGS". For an example, Man A finds Item X interesting and picks it up at Shelf A. Holding on to it, he moves on to Shelf B, which is abt 10m away, and finds Item Y more interesting, thus leaving Item A at Shelf B. Den, upon reaching Shelf C, Man A once again found something that he "might" wanna buy, Item Z, and leaves Item Y on the FLOOR. As he approaches the cashier, he decides that he doesn't want anything in the end, leaving Item Z at the cashier and left for home.
ok, Being a floor crew, i need to do something call "re-shop", which means to go ard the shop and collect any "misplaced" toys and placing them back to the original shelf. Toyrus has different "sections" eg: Boys and Girls.
Everyday, we'll find toys from Section A "migrated illegally" to Section B, and very often, they "travel" there by ships or 'sampans' called "Adult". Btw, sampans are small malay fishing boats. I dun mind doing all the reshop and stuff, but still, i'm concerned of wat is becoming of our soceity and wat went wrong with our education system? Why is Singaporeans becoming so "barbaric"? izzit so hard to put the "unwanted" toys back to the shelves? or at least leave them at their original section or at the cashier.. It's not like we'r asking them to arrange the shelves to a prefect condition.

Food for thoughs: Is there something wrong with our education system? Or, are Singaporeans taking too much things for granted? Mayb we'r all being spoiled...
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No.1!!!

We had a BIG promotion at toyrus last fri and sat.
Buy 3 get 4th free. Any items.
A sales target was set for us from HQ, and a competetion was set among the other branches.
In short, we won even though we'r the smallest and the most unlikely store to win.
Congrats to all staff at united square toyrus.

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It has been a while

It have been quite sometime since i have blogged.
let's talk abt my recent experience at work..

Working in a toy store izzin easy, especially if ur a prefectionist.
Many will think that this job suits me, but the actual fact is, it's not.
i dun mind the long working hours, i dun mind standing for long hours and i like serving customers the best i can.
But this is not wat i wan. I wan to teach and that dream will soon become reality.

Working in Toyrus have its moments too.
there was once i was arranging the toys, a boy young little boy ard age of 5-6 was walking slowly, as if he's brousing through the massive varities of toys in the store. then i heard a man saying "where did u go?" in a very calm manner.
The boy turned ard and immedieatly ran into the man's arms, crying. His father asked him," where did u go?" in a comforting manner. the boy couldn't stop cry for some time. after a while, the father wanted to leave as the boy is going for a music lesson. the boy quietly held his father's hand and did a very surprizing action that made me giggled.
the boy very conviently wiped his nose on his daddy's shirt and all his dad said was," Oie, u very dirty leh.". the father wasn't angry, just a little annoyed. hahaha.
so wat have i insights hav i gained from this incident?
1st- boys 5 onwards won't show expression of lost and cry when they are really lost, they will just try to look for their parents themselves.
2nd- Being a parent, dun reproach a child when he's lost. He has alreadly gone through a round of terror and fear, so try to comfort him or her instead.
3rd- daddys are portable napkins. u can wipe anywhere.. =P

That's all for today.
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