Lost

So many things happened.
So many things to blog abt.
So lost for words.
Love life - a Mess.
Work life - too lazy to do anything abt it.
Family life - spending too lil time at home.
Personal life - I wanna slp...

so that pretty much concludes all that has happened recently.
kinda long to write everything here, probably will bore most of whosoever that reads this blog.
dun even know if anybody reads it anymore.
the skin is kinda old.
the entries are boring, pretty much like my life.
the whole thing is pretty much a failure, like myself.

That's all for today.
should start to blog more often...

Screwed up life..

Why does my life have to be in such a mess?
it's painful.
to think that this will never happen to me, but it has..
I can't stop thinking abt u, yet i can't let her down..
it's so complicated, yet it seems so easy.
a part of me tells me to end this quickly, get it over and done with, hurting one party now will be better den everyone suffer.
while another part of me tells me that i cannot hurt her anymore. enough is enough, i have hurt her enough. I'm so trapped..
i can't let go of both of u...
I'm really not a good man. please, both of u, stay far away from me...
i'll only hurt both of u...
I dun want to....

help...

In need of a break...

work work work.
Have been making new friends to widen my social circle.
Really haven been doing my work...
lots of things have piled up..
must be the holiday season..
need to really take a break from the world.
need to go somewhere without the city, without technology, without humans, without sins...
so tired with the life that i'm having...
seviourly abused by people in the school.
I'm only getting 1500, and i'm working 2 people job.
I mean i can help u as a favour, but if u take me for granted, den u will be in deep shit.
Gotta learn to reject...

got these feelings again..
somebody kept coming into my mind..
and I start to mind how she thinks abt me..
I'm afraid that i'm falling into the deadly trap of love again..
But rite now i know i can't give her happiness, yet i wanna hold onto her..
the selfishness of man..
Gotta stop all these...
Self control...

To that somebody:
I can't stop myself thinking of u.
I can't help but wonder if ur ok every now and then.
I can't stop wondering how u feel about me.