Not walking alone

It's a long time since I really posted something positive.
Hahaha...
Well, God is very graceful to me.
He has been providing me lil bits of income bit by bit when i needed them the most.
A few ppl return me money here, claim back a bit of money there, earn a bit here, scrimp a bit there. That's the life that He want's me to experience.
Prayed for a Job, clueless of wat to look for, I prayed to Him.
Now i've finally got a job tat is prefect for me.
It's not gonna be easy, there will be trouble and difficulties, but with and by His will I'll be alrite.

Vengeances

When one is cursed, two Graves are dug.
A saying from the popular anime in japan.
Yet how true it is.
In the world of Withcraft and Sourcery, What goes around comes around.
How foolish humans can be even knowing that hatred and vengeance will come back and haunt them, bringing forth more miseries.
How can one free himself from such a vicious trap and cycle?
How can one find peace in such a chaotic world and time?
Time and time again I wanted to leave this wretched world and go to heaven.
Many a time, i wanted to commit suicide to end the pain and suffering.
Burdened and tormented by others and myself, guilt and depression strangles me.
Duties and desires chained me down.
I want to be free.
I want to be loved.
I want a family.
I want to find God.
I want to end the war within me, the war between the holy spirit and the demon within me.
I'm not shameful to confess that I know of the demons and the devil personally.
I know their works and their plans.
I'm their strongest weapon against God, against Jesus Christ.
That is how sinful I am.