All this while I have been told that i have to be baptized to join the BOTC, Basic Officer Training Course.
All these years, I have been a lowly OTC, Officer Cadet Trainee, a not recognised 1.
Not recognized by HQ, not acknowledged by the officers in church. ALONE...
A surge in me asked me to call HQ to ask about it today, and to my horror...
How is it that i can survive on such an environment for such a long time...
How does it feel to be fighting all odds and only to discover that what you have been fighting for all these years only to discover that all these turned out to be a mistake, or what's worse, a lie...
Was it a mistake? Was it a Lie? Was it a misunderstanding?
I do not know...
I do not want to know...
I only know that rite now my heart greives...
Tears seems to be welling out of my eyes...
I want to cry out loud, but something seems to e stuck at my throat...
If it was a lie, God allowed it?
If it was a misunderstanding, God allowed it?
If it was a mistake, God allowed it?
Was it of the flesh or spirit?
Always go back to the source, only the source holds the truth. Humans are not trust worthy, not anymore...
I can't think properly now...
How much do I have to suffer under the hands of people who call themselves Christians, People who call themselves BROTHERS IN CHRIST?
Tuesday, 25 March 2008
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