If only time can be turned backed...

When lil brother tells me of his outing to sentosa today, of wat happened and all, I can help but feel depressed and jealous.
Not envious, but jealous.
Born not with gd looks, cute features, I eventually became an OUTCAST of the class.
when u put a below average looks with a not so bright brain along with a not so educated family in a class filled with smartys and well to do family, u will get a OUTCAST.
being INVITED to an outing or just to hangout by classmates only happens in my dream and can be considered a luxury, let along going to sentosa with friends.
I know you might think that, " hey but now ur all grown up and u have friends don't u. u can go with ur friends now."
Yes, i know. But it can never cover that large empty hole in my past.
the empty hole that is suppose to be filled with happy memories and friends.
I have been alway outside the picture...
I guess I will always be...