Friends. Love them, Hate them, yearn to have, rather not have.

That's a long title i knw.
as the recent events that unfolds in and ard my life have sorta enlighten me.
I thank God for showing me the signs and visions.
As the recent posts shows that i hav regrets of my childhood due to the lack of friends. Self pity? Mayb.
Recently i came to knw that a friend of mine have permanently ended his friendship with another.
I realised that while some yearns for somebody to be friends with them, some actually wished that they had not known each other at all.
Is friendship really that weak? Too tired to ponder over it now.
Just wanna finish this entry.

Another thing...
I'm so ashame of myself.
God have blessed me with the gift to sense other ppl's feelings, yet I did not put my gift to gd use and all i did was whine abt my past..
While my lil brother is sending out signs of depress and disappointment, calling out for somebody to talk to, i'm there too occupied with my stupid past and failed to realise his need and cry.
I'm such a disgrace and let God down..
Putting my sad unworthy past aside, starting anew, looking out for my lil brother.
Less of me, More of others and Everything for God.
How much of the statement can I fulfil?
I do not know, but I'm gonna try.

dedicating this song, Graduation by Vitamin C, to Benedict and his classmates.
Also to friends who are still friends and friends who are no longer friends.


-fin