easier said than done

It's getting harder and harder to keep my rage in control.
Keeping myself in emotional state doesn't seem to help anymore...
Not knowing when i'll snap, i fear that i might hurt the people i care and love for.
Benedict thinks that i'm being emo, cause i'm emo..
Sadly, that what most people think of me...
They know me not...
not well enough to understand the rage and hatred and deep grudge that i have for humans.
Last night, i lost control for a while...
A long time since i lost control...
Nobody listens.. everyone jumps to conclusion and quick to give advice...
Death seems to be a much easier way out then facing this Raging demon that's sealed within me..
Everybody wants to be happy, likewise for me cause i'm human too.
Living seems to be more of a burden than happiness.
I want to see the Lord, i want to be in heaven with God, I want to go back home.
Using depression to suppress rage.. that's my way for control, but rage seems to getting stronger and stronger.
Maybe letting go is the solution.
Easier said than done.

fin
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